i'm so lost of wats goin in my life. i juz realize tat i have no aim in my life. back to the him, i dun knw why nwadays i cant stop thinking and dreaming of him. sometimes, i feel tat its my fault tat i didnt appreciate him. bt then i remember tat i got scolding from my mother for the pillow he gave me. i kinda lie 2 my mom tat the pillow was given by my bestfriend. she got so mad bcoz she felt there's sth wrong about the story. if i dun llike him, i dun think tat i would take the chances.
we broke up 4 the 1st time coz i thought i was cheating on him coz i like other guy. bt then when we got back 2gether, he like another gal. wth. its in the past. the bad memory haunts me every day n nite. then most of my frenz say tat " do u knw tat u n him did not officially break up? u two were away 4 sometime 2 solve problem." now i dun even knw wat happen. i'm so confused. and i dun why most of classmates say tat i'm gettin bit down day by day. my god. wats wrong wif me? i wonder if this is goin 2 be over. wat should i do? we are friends now. i dun reali think tat we will ever reach the stage of bestfriend. he gives me an insecure feeling and most likely, i dun even have my trust on him anymore. haix. i hope he could himself as me. i think tat he would understands me more. i'm also human. i got feeling also. i'm jz a gal, not some kind of superheroes that can be cure easily.
